The Divine Curse

So, I’m back again. Last days were just more than just fucking mind-fucking. However, In somehow I managed being still alive and being ready for next week, it’s not getting better, just to make it sure.

I’m hardly thinking about giving up the gay-stuff in my stories. I don’t actually know why, but I think it’s just important for getting more “famous” at all. I have to think about it. Yet I’m starting over with the first trial of another genre. Stay updated via Twitter or stuff, I’ll make it for sure.

By the way: First reading is: 14th of November 2011, so it’s just tomorrow. God, I’m so nervous!

Messy entry, I know.
God bless, xx
Piiu

Downfall Pt. 2

Actually, who is falling down? D: I don’t even know at all, but it’s awesome song from israeli-band “Salem”. I’m listening to way too much israeli-stuff now, I guess. Or watching. My friends are already joking about me becoming jewish. lol.

So it’s like today is the last day before the last day before I have to go to psychiatry. I’m kinda interestend In what Am I gonna “do” there all day long, lmao, it’s like I’m in a prison when having my 16th birthday. I’m getting old and all I can do is sitting around and doing nothing, I even don’t have a TV up there lol!

So it’s like this is going to be my last post.  Today’s gonna be messy. We still have to pack all our things, and I have to visit another doctor than just did ; and I have to go to a media market where I can buy another charger for my laptop due to my dad one’s doesn’t work. And Oh, I have to visit my dad.
lawl.

So, see you in three weeks, dears!
xoxoxox & God bless,
Piia

Downfall Pt. 1

At least I’m back for the next two days. It’s sunday now and as you all may know I’m gonna go to my therapy at wednesday. I don’t even know If I’ll be able to use the internet, I but have my cellphone. As well I’m gonna go 16 in the days, so I guess I’ll give you the most neccessary dates for closest future:
19th of october – X-Faktor on TV (Lol!) | 20th of october – Leaving for Borderlum/Danmark (Sanatorium) | 30th of october – my 16th birthday.  | 4th of November – Return.
So I’ll be away for three weeks. I’m guessing that’s OK ; and as well it’s kinda good for me to write up there. After two weeks of full-programm I’m gonna have one week rehab as well (-> Eating disorders), and I have to drive to up there about 10 hours with car, while my father already promised me charger for the car. So…

Well, did I already use ‘October’? Sure did, but yet again in another way: I was (and still am) arranging my Word/Office/PDF Files on PC when I refound a story I used to like very much. Was written once for a project that’s just filled with 10p-Stories. So, it was called ‘October’, and yeah. It dealed with a topic I always used to like. I might tell about it yet, cause I guess I’m gonna rewrite it the time :) Or atleast finnish it. However, here we go:
Well so it’s like this: I’m dealing with the pain slut disease. You know those guys/girls that are seemingly liking pain and aches and can’t get their sexual satisfaction without it? Yeah. I’m dealing this. Guess what? It’s pretty hot topic, lol :P

That was my desktop when started arranging (well I put almost all my files on desktop first!)

So yet it’s like this. (Whoa, almost doesn’t make a change at all. I thought I worked hard lol)

Guess what? I’m gonna go back to work now, lol! God bless and all the stuff,
Piia

Currently listened: Puppet Man – Jay Reatard. | Currently watched: Cyr Videos on Youtube
Currently red: Relapse/Collapse – by Myself. | Currently ate: Läkerol Candy – > Cassis.

Some Clearifications

Well, in somehow some clearifications were just more than neccessary. In somehow everyone is having a sudden urge to talk shit about me being bulimic and shit. Well, I am definetely not! I have an eating disorder, and I’m getting cured in a time. My eating disorder is NOT about vomiting or just eating nothing, so SHUT THE FUCK UP before you’re talking lame shit!

But okei, it’s not everything about the disorders. :) I started to make thoughts about another project next to my Lasimaailma-thing. It’s not even close to clear, but however, just writing around is nice as well, isn’t it?

As well my date for psychiatrie is getting closer and closer. 2 weeks, and after another week for aiding my eating disorders. Both will hapen close to the border to danmark, so I have to drive between 8 and 9 hours. I’m so gonna take my laptop with me, dad already promised me a charger for the car , lol!

Oh and dudes, it’s my 16th birthday soon! 30. of October is getting closer and closer. I even don’t have a clue for what to wish, but I guess it’s okei. It’s not all about gifts, even though I hate shit like this. I always feel poor and bothering when I get gifts. LOL. So don’t even think about it, dudes.

As well, I updated my characteristics, just for you to know. Thanks, dudes :]

God bless,
Piia

Some updates !

First of all a little blabla, but there are updates in this post as well, so read it from the top to the bottom and open your youtube so you can type in Mati Gavriel and check this hell of a guy out, he’s so amazing and hell no, this is no adverd, lol!

After a night in which we didn’t sleep again that much (Suna and I, we are amazing! Going to bed at 5:30am, when her mother is about to leave! xD) we’ve been watching X-Factor on TV yesterday; and fortunately my favourite Mati Gavriel came up to another lap. Lol, he’s so amazing! <3

Ehm well, I’ve been busy at all. Thanks to a good friend of mine I am not really able to write anymore. It’s always like “I will write after midnight” (thank god I’ve holidays now!) and what happens at midnight? Right, the phone rings!
Messed with my boyfriend again. It’s not that we’re in trouble or stuff, but it’s kind of annoying to find a date in which we can meet all alone, not with his friends or his brother or stuff. But thank God I can call him boyfriend again, lol!

Well , something about the writing process? I’m stuck at a phrase I can’t get rid of: I have a huge urge to use it, but I can’t go on with. I’ve been thinking about it yesterday all the time when I wasn’t spending my money to (senseless, lol!) casting-shows, but I can’t go on :(  So I guess I have to delete a few lines (or about a few pages? lol!) and start new, cause this idea of a story is stuck in my head and I even don’t want to get rid of it!

I’m lucky to announce I’ve found someone that is willing to help me with the layout and updates and stuff, we just have to check back who is doing what and stuff. I’m thankful and I will announce the name here the days! :]

As well we changed (or I changed…) the contact adresses; I made two more “The Beloved ones”-Pages; I’m gonna do another one and delete one due to I can’t stand my cousins page here while he’s already dead, I am definetely not strong enough!

More updates are going to come soon, so stay in touch and check back soon!

God bless,
Piia

Some needless words..

Are, that I am currently watching all over my stories, change them a little and change the author’s name in everyway from Piia K. Allaway to Piia Katri :]

God bless,
Piia

Long, Long Time Ago…

Since I wrote the last post. I was in france, as already told, and since then I was just busy with meeting my friends and writing on the new stuff. Right, there are ideas up for now, Ideas for a project called “Lasimaailma”. It’s finnish for “World of Glass”, and I’ve been easily inspired by 51KOODIA’s Song that’s called “Lasimaailma” as well.

So what’s up for now? I’m sad to announce that my lovely Cousin Lauri and his husband both died. It’s been a time ago, but it’s still hard to close this space they both left, and I guess I won’t ever be able to. However, rest in peace, both of you. 17th of September 2010.

Unaware of this I was almost killed by school works and the exchange to france. The exchange, well… it was one of a kind, but it’s been a not so good kind I guess. Strange problems all around, I felt domestic at my hosts, but in somehow they had so cum all around whether I’d be bulimic and holy shit – THAT’S NOT TRUE!
But as well I’ve been inspired a lot. The area in which I stayed [South of France, all around Lyon!] is just beautiful and amazing, I was able to take off my eyes from this scapes, possibly that’s why I yet don’t have any pictures at all.. Well yes, it sucks! XD

Guessing I’m gonna search another host for this page again. I’m unable to do this all on my own! xD
And yes, I already promised it to a bunch of people, but there’s gonna be  a Lyrics-Section, even though it’s been ages ago when i wrote the last. However, you have to have something to smile about, right? :D

So all the best for you and god bless,
xxoxox,
Piiu

Finally back again.

Guess what, I’ve been in france!

For about 10 days I’ve been there; and give me some time to upload everything that’s necessary :P

Hei! :)

Due to some problems (and some of them were male : D) I was not really able to write something. So maybe I should give an update. It’s late in the night and, due to  a few problems (one of them is male, yeah) I can’t really sleep. So:

1st of all: Unfortunatelty I lost my USB Stick with all my written stuff! :/ So, I have to ask around my guys whether one of them has a few stories left. I don’t want to write it all by new, so at least a beginning would be nice. If you’ve got something and I didn’t ask, send a mail to: Pii_sku@suomi24.fi – thanks!

2nd: School’s doing just awesome. I’m good in almost every subject (Chemistry sucks, in anyway!), and biology is my favorite. We finally got that neurolgy stuff so I can make up my rare aknowledges, yeah, I’m gonna know what I’m writing about! Unfortunately, there’s my visit to psychiatry and my exchange this year, as well as my year-end Audit. Gonna do it about Lexotanil and Quetiapin.

3rd: I’m gonna leave for france in a few days. As well, I’m gonna be 16 soon. Even don’t know what to wish yet!

4rd: I’m writing on several projects yet. Beginning with just lyrics ending up with two or three complete ideas for books there’s everything within my thoughts, and I’m gonna see what this is gonna lead me to. I’m really excited about this. Gonna work at this Blogpage as well. If I’m mooded.

God bless,
-Piia

Shot Announcement

Hei Folks!

Yep, I restarted with writing “The Gardeners of Eden” the 3rd time. Once It wasn’t nothing more than a 2chaptered fiction, but it grew soon more. And – after I let it be for a long time, I’m gonna rewrite, due to some stuff is just horrible.

So, I did a few changes. Some of the Guys got other names yet. So as Høkan has got another surname yet. He’s called Høkan Ronni Lindén. But, just have a look yourself here here. Sorry, I wrote horrible this morning. ;)

I was working about 1 h or so on a characteristic. Gonna do this with 2 other dudes today as well. Hell. I need a coffee.

God Bless,
Piia (08:o2am)